lies and truths and hopes

Sometimes, I am very good at lying to myself. And by sometimes, I mean nearly all the time.

My future is a bit blurry right now because my intended plans fell through and this past week I've been sabotaging myself and I've been reckless and careless and focusing all my energy on the wrong things. I think sometimes, recognizing that is the first step.

I took today off because I needed to regroup and start to feel like a real person again.

I just wrote on my bathroom mirror this:

"Hey unicorn princess! DON'T PANIC!!! Everything will be okay. SMILE!"

And then I drew a bunch of hearts all around it.

I think it's time for ME. I need to focus on myself and really loving myself instead of just having a crush on the person I pretend to be.

I need to make a to-do list and start getting things done. Sometimes, I wish I could have someone hold my hand and tell me everything is going to be okay and also kick me in the ass when I'm in one of these moods. I know I need to be that person though.

Tomorrow morning I am going to get up earlier than I need to and I'm going to be grateful to be alive and I'm going to wear something that makes me happy and I'm going to get things done!

It's Spring!

Hello! It's Spring, time for daffodils and popsicles and flip flops.

Photo credit

Everything is going well right now. I'm excited.

10 things that make me happy

1. coloring books
2. stickers
3. matching bra & knickers
4. laughing
5. listening to music loudly
6. the sound of rain
7. buying new clothes
8. cupcakes
9. unicorns
10. dinosaurs

I've never used Polyvore before, but Gala Darling had a fun contest in cahoots with ModCloth, so I couldn't resist making a set! Here's mine, I love the dress!

hello darling by skirteconomy featuring Tarina Tarantino jewelry